tired of it.

The very credentials these people are waving around as something special, I'm tearing up and throwing out with the trash—along with everything else I used to take credit for. And why? Because of Christ. Yes, all the things I once thought were so important are gone from my life. Compared to the high privilege of knowing Christ Jesus as my Master, firsthand, everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant—dog dung. I've dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him. I didn't want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ—God's righteousness.
Philippians 3:7

I don't usually care for the message, but I really like this verse in the Message. I'm tired of materialism. God didn't call me to desire material things. I don't need 20 pairs of shoes, 15 purses, expensive clothes, a GPS system, a new car, those attachments for my mixer, or my mixer at all, or anything... I need Jesus. I need Him so that I can share Him with others.

I think that going to Philadelphia to visit family so much is what got my heart in the right place to begin with. I can't bear to look down the streets and see people starving and begging for money. Then we went to Jamaica and saw so many people who lived in shacks and didn't eat at night. Talk about hard to deal with. We were vacationing & celebrating, they were starving. We went to Chicago with my family for a few days- people walked right up to our windows at stop lights begging for money. In St. Louis, we went up in the arch to view the city- came back to a man digging in trashcans. How is that fair?? Driving home from Anderson this week, I saw a man pushing all of his belongings in a grocery cart. I came home to a very large 500 sq. ft. apartment that day. God blesses us with money, to bless others.

"Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.'
Matthew 25:37-40 (The Message)

I'm broken hearted for the poor. Children shouldn't die every night because of hunger. It simply should not be allowed. I can't justify a new shirt or a new toy anymore. I do not need anything. We are so blessed. Why does God give us food to eat every night? Why us?